Endless Thoughts;

sister, sister, where art thou?

How is it that siblings actually work? I see those who tend to always get along and those who constantly fight. Where does that nature to be nice to each other, regardless of yours and their moods? I can't fully say I have it bad, for I know I have it in the middle. James and I get along fine, we do stuff for each other just because the other asks, while it's not the same for Jen and me. One minute I'll be doing stuff for her, like typing up her English papers, and the next she's yelling at me because I asked her how long she'd be using the internet for. Not to say that this isn't usual nor that I haven't played the bratty card a multiple amount of times too, but what sets that to be in siblings, that ability to be nice regardless of your opinion or theirs? That someone can just automatically be nice, and they both respond, always nice, regardless if you are, and you are nice regardless if they are.

Most siblings freak out once you go from nice to grumpy, but there are those who are supportive and like friends, which includes your mood swings. I wish there was a way to keep a constant respect that only occurs when you both have a good mood, the mood that doesn't cause you to jump to name-calling or quick (and normally stupid) thinking. It's either something you're brought up with, or something you develope over time [is what I'm guessing].

I find myself on the computer at 1am because bed just doesn't look inviting. I'm still sick from babysitting last week, I never sneeze unless I have allergies, so I'm guesing this is a really bad cold if my nose is so stuffed I can't breathe through it, and it leaks every so often. To add to that, I plug it with toilet paper and end up sneezing that out; how pleasant.

I can't help but wonder if there is somewhere I can buy a "constant good mood" to install into those that day-by-day treat me only on their moods... I'm thinking costco.

posted by Emily @ 1:02 AM